Zombie!

I feel like a zombie today. I didn't sleep well. I woke up early. I heard a dog barking at 12 midnight last night. Okay, I hope nothing will stop me from enjoying my day today! Thank you. =)

What I've learned today!

What have I learned so far? I've been living in this world for 25 years and I feel I am still the same. Nothing has changed. Well, some things have changed, such as the way I think, the way I talk to people. One thing that has not and will never change is my height! hahahahahahahahhaa =)

Anyway, for 25 years living in this world, I have met many types of people, character and attitude. Some of them are very cheerful everyday, some are just plain emotional and some are lazy and many more. From them, I've learned to be better. I have done lots of stupid mistakes in the past, sometimes I would just like to rewind and erase everything, but, those are my lessons. I have to accept them because I chose them to be like that. Yes, stupid mistakes. If I happen to think about them, I feel disgusted and embarrassed. Besides making stupid mistakes and hurt people's feelings, I have been hurt too. So, guess karma does exist. I bet when the pain was just unbearable, Allah was just being fair, the people whom have hurt me would someday feel the same way. Wallahua'lam. Oh well, though I've been through some bad past, I've done many good things too :) That means, my life is in a good shape. All are balanced out. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

We learn from our mistakes, we repeat and enhance our good deeds. Thus, so far, I've learned to be a better person, to be more open to ideas, to be more brave when I talk to people, to be more confident, to keep learning and to avoid from being stupid! Sometimes I do act childish, but, that's me! I'm still in the process of learning to accept things the way they are.

Speaking about my life now, no difference than the previous posts. Oh, last weekend, went to a birthday party. Quite enjoyed it. Relationship wise, all is good though sometimes I do feel lonely when he's not around. I miss you.

........................... Sigh, whenever I do my prayers, I will never forget about my late grandmother, Hjh Siti Hajijah bte Nawi, I miss you nek! ='( Al-fatihah...

Bedtime.

When I'm sleepy, I tend to get annoyed easily and I don't talk much. I also would love to get a big hug before I sleep.

Goodnight.

InsyaAllah

This is such a beautiful song lyric by Maher Zain.

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That your so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can`t see which way to go
Don`t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insya Allah
Insya Allah you`ll find your way

Everytime you can make one more mistake
You feel you can`t repent
And that its way too late
Your`re so confused,wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don`t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side
Insya Allah
Insya Allah you`ll find your way
Insya Allah
Insya Allah you`ll find your way

Turn to Allah
He`s never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
OOO Ya Allah
Guide my steps don`t let me go astray
You`re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way
Insya Allah
Insya Allah we`ll find the way

Never give up. Allah will always be there for you...

It's Weekend! :D

Hello weekend! :)

Looking forward to tonight. Going to the Theatre show called 'Tragedi' at Empire Ampitheatre. Read the synopsis below. Alright, that's a pretty small picture and pretty hard to read. squint your eyes and read! I just thought of watching something different this weekend. Something live and not movies on screen all the time! $35/person with food served!

Oh, had a great and lazy day yesterday at work. We celebrated Hari raya at work yesterday, FAC open office! It was fun. didn't take any pictures of the food, but my friends did. instead, we took some crazy pics of ourselves. it was fun and food was GOOD! i like. i like.

one crazy bunch! without them in the office, the office will be quiet! with us in the office, the others will just have to be patient or just put on their ear-piece and their own music!

I can't wait to see you baby!! gonna have a great night, I hope. I know we will =)

Alright. I'm done and bored. Gonna continue with my Desperate Housewives series!

taaaaa~

Hello!

My Monday was not too bad, maybe cause I hoped for Monday to treat me good. & it did! :) So, ask for it, wish for it, believe in it, you'll get it. So, if you want to be happy today, tell yourself that you're gonna be happy, work for it and believe in it, for sure you'll be happy cause you want it! That's life. If you tell yourself it's gonna be a bad day, your day will turn out dull. don't you think? I do think so =)

Had a great weekend. Spent time with my sweetie! went to few open houses on Saturday and Sunday too. I couldn't eat more than I wished for. On Saturday, I surrendered after two houses but I got so hungry after 10pm and starved myself till the next day. On Sunday, same thing happened. I just didn't have my usual big appetite but I was on for sweet stuff. I don't get myself sometimes. hehe! Didn't get to take lots of pictures this year, but others took our pics. So, let's just wait till they post it to facebook! talking about Facebook, Facebook has given everybody NO privacy at all and there's no such thing as 'Secrets' in life anymore cause everything will be revealed online, sooner or later, though you don't choose that to happen. Funny how life treats us nowadays. I think I prefer the way we live 10 years back.

Via, if you're reading this, just wanna tell you I miss you! Let me be honest, you're the happiest, cheerful person I've ever met and whenever I see you, you make me happy and you make people see the positive side of life! I think that's cause of your wide smile and big laugh! hahahahhaha Love you babe! When can we meet again? xx.

Oh, sayang, I think I'm starting to like the song 'Cinta Kita'. =)

Biar cinta kita tumbuh harum mewangi
Dan dunia menjadi saksinya
Untuk apa kita membuang-buang waktu
Dengan kata kata perpisahan

Demi cinta kita aku akan menjaga
Cinta kita yg telah kita bina
Walau hari terus berganti hari lagi
Cinta kita abadi selamanya

Suweeet =)

Outta here! Oh, glad to see my dad's happy face when he saw his birthday present from my mom. love you pa and mama.

October!

It's October already! Time flies very fast..

Ok, gonna get some breakfast first! ...

Had my breakfast, Coffee and bread! While having breakfast, I watched Lagenda Budak Setan for the 3rd time. 3rd time man! I must admit, I love that movie especially the part when Lisa Surihani and Farid Kamil are together. They are both gorgeous. :) I thought I won't cry watching it but it's just uncontrollable, I just had to cry again watching it. Such a good movie.

Life has been great. Life has been treating me well since last year. Thank you Allah :). Of course there has been ups and downs but they were all manageable. Thanks to Allah, thanks to my family who has been supporting me in whatever I do, I love you all. Thanks to my love, Isaputera, for being there for me to support me in any ways no matter how bad it gets, thank god I found you! I can't wait to be your wife =) hehehe Mwah.

(ani pose kambang :D)

I hope October will treat me better especially with work! I hope all will go well. =) September was a tough month to go through. We lost our beloved grandmother. Go through a quiet raya celebration. Siblings left Brunei for UK (gotta wait for another year to see them!). Oh well...

Losing someone very dear to me forever was a feeling that I could not describe. Seeing her trying to catch her last breath was the most tough and saddest picture to view. The moment I went to the room and saw her 'nazak' on the bed, I just couldn't hold my tears. I called her and told her I was there but she didn't open her eyes. 15 mins after I was there, she was gone forever. Until today, I will never forget about how it happened. I miss you. I miss my grandmother. She's the most religious, kind and full of honest advices that I've ever met. She was there for my Atok through thick and thin. She was there for her sons and daughters when they were in need. She was there for us, grandchildren, when we need her. She loves all of us dearly. Although she's not the chatty type but she will always give us good advice, she taught us with reading Quran.. Although she has a very serious look, she always give us a good feeling when she talks coz she has a very soft voice and she was very polite when she talks. We miss you Nek.. Thank you Allah for giving me the chance to see her for 25 years. Semoga Roh Nenek di tempat bersama orang-orang yang beriman...

Have a good day all!