Sunday.

I love Sundays. Well, I think I've mentioned this before I love Sundays cause it's Sunday but I hate it cause the next day is Monday. Oh well. Let's just cherish and enjoy my Sunday while I can. I don't really like going out on Sunday cause I think Sunday is the time for me to relax, like, really relax. RELAX. RELAX. =)

A perfect Sunday;

& let me tell you, Mini-shopaholic book is hilarious! lovin' it from the first chapter already! those girls who love chick-lits, you gotta have that book by Sophie Kinsella. In fact, you gotta read all her books cause all of them are cute and funny. =)

I'm missing my favorite man. He's busy with his family for some discussions. *wide smile*. I can't wait for 30th of December! I love you Isaputera, always! mwah. so now people, let's enjoy our red-velvet cupcake and some ice-blended mocha so we can get high as high as the sky~ haha. <3>

Happy ending

Hello again!

I have been busy with work, work, work. Nothing interesting. No, I'm not a workaholic but my workload is just unbearable sometimes! They're giving me such a big headache. Anyways, I'm not here to talk about work. Weekend is my time to forget about office, work, stress and whatnots! I'm here to share my not-so-interesting life. =)

Things that I'm looking forward to in December 2010:

1) My engagement.

2) My engagement.

3) My engagement.

HAHAHA! I can't wait.

I'll be getting engaged with my super-beloved man who has been through a lot with me. The guy whom has accepted me for who I am, no matter what. The guy who has to bear with me whenever I'm having mood swings. hehe. Thank you for being patient with me most of the time, thank you for being there for me through my ups and downs, thank you for being the sweetest guy who fully understands me. You are irreplaceable. I love you Awgku Mohd Alliisa Putera =)

Therefore, in conclusion, I can feel that my 2010 is the best year of my life, so far. =)

Things I adore

Things I adore by Lishqur featuring black jewelry

I want to have all of the things in the picture!

Weekend!

I love weekends because weekends are the time for me to spend with my loved ones and relax my mind. However, I don't think I have been relaxing, so far! In weekdays, I work like crazy. Weekends, I go out and spend a lot and that means I have not really have the time for myself to actually sleep in, eat and watch tv and whatever that we do at home. I need to get a time for myself. MYSELF! hehe.

I was thinking, why do we take things for granted until we actually lose them? Why don't we ever appreciate things that we have now and cherish them? It happens to everyone. We don't care about how someone feels because we are too comfortable about having them and thinking that we can never lose them. It never crossed our minds that if we keep on repeating the same mistakes and taking them for granted, we could lose them one day! Unfortunately, we only regret for the things we did and said when we lose them. So, I guess the lesson to be learned here is not to take things for granted, think before you will actually hurt someone!

I'm sneezing again, non-stop! I don't want to get sick again. No! I'm tired of having bad flu. sigh. Everyday, I think about my late grandmother. I miss you nek. I miss you so much. ='( Al-Fatihah....

Salam Aidiladha.

Assalamualaikum =)

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha. It feels good to have a 1 day break from work. I know it's not enough but, at least, I have one! weehu! I'm missing my siblings! How I wished you both are here with us to stuff ourselves with good food! yumyum. Anyways, I have not been blogging for quite a while now and that's because I have been too busy with crazy workloads. I can't wait for those ridiculous number of workloads to be over! I need to relax for a bit!

I would like to share some good news, but I just changed my mind. I don't think I'd share it just yet until it really happens. Oh, I'm watching Glee now and when one of them said 'you won't push girls, will you?', something just came to my mind that women are just sometimes lucky. Girls can hit guys but not the other way round =). Don't you think that's just unfair? I think it is unfair but somehow I do feel lucky. haha.

Anyways, this month I just started to really work out so i hope I'd feel really good about my body someday! dudududu.. bye~

Zombie!

I feel like a zombie today. I didn't sleep well. I woke up early. I heard a dog barking at 12 midnight last night. Okay, I hope nothing will stop me from enjoying my day today! Thank you. =)

What I've learned today!

What have I learned so far? I've been living in this world for 25 years and I feel I am still the same. Nothing has changed. Well, some things have changed, such as the way I think, the way I talk to people. One thing that has not and will never change is my height! hahahahahahahahhaa =)

Anyway, for 25 years living in this world, I have met many types of people, character and attitude. Some of them are very cheerful everyday, some are just plain emotional and some are lazy and many more. From them, I've learned to be better. I have done lots of stupid mistakes in the past, sometimes I would just like to rewind and erase everything, but, those are my lessons. I have to accept them because I chose them to be like that. Yes, stupid mistakes. If I happen to think about them, I feel disgusted and embarrassed. Besides making stupid mistakes and hurt people's feelings, I have been hurt too. So, guess karma does exist. I bet when the pain was just unbearable, Allah was just being fair, the people whom have hurt me would someday feel the same way. Wallahua'lam. Oh well, though I've been through some bad past, I've done many good things too :) That means, my life is in a good shape. All are balanced out. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

We learn from our mistakes, we repeat and enhance our good deeds. Thus, so far, I've learned to be a better person, to be more open to ideas, to be more brave when I talk to people, to be more confident, to keep learning and to avoid from being stupid! Sometimes I do act childish, but, that's me! I'm still in the process of learning to accept things the way they are.

Speaking about my life now, no difference than the previous posts. Oh, last weekend, went to a birthday party. Quite enjoyed it. Relationship wise, all is good though sometimes I do feel lonely when he's not around. I miss you.

........................... Sigh, whenever I do my prayers, I will never forget about my late grandmother, Hjh Siti Hajijah bte Nawi, I miss you nek! ='( Al-fatihah...

Bedtime.

When I'm sleepy, I tend to get annoyed easily and I don't talk much. I also would love to get a big hug before I sleep.

Goodnight.

InsyaAllah

This is such a beautiful song lyric by Maher Zain.

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That your so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can`t see which way to go
Don`t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insya Allah
Insya Allah you`ll find your way

Everytime you can make one more mistake
You feel you can`t repent
And that its way too late
Your`re so confused,wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don`t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side
Insya Allah
Insya Allah you`ll find your way
Insya Allah
Insya Allah you`ll find your way

Turn to Allah
He`s never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
OOO Ya Allah
Guide my steps don`t let me go astray
You`re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way
Insya Allah
Insya Allah we`ll find the way

Never give up. Allah will always be there for you...

It's Weekend! :D

Hello weekend! :)

Looking forward to tonight. Going to the Theatre show called 'Tragedi' at Empire Ampitheatre. Read the synopsis below. Alright, that's a pretty small picture and pretty hard to read. squint your eyes and read! I just thought of watching something different this weekend. Something live and not movies on screen all the time! $35/person with food served!

Oh, had a great and lazy day yesterday at work. We celebrated Hari raya at work yesterday, FAC open office! It was fun. didn't take any pictures of the food, but my friends did. instead, we took some crazy pics of ourselves. it was fun and food was GOOD! i like. i like.

one crazy bunch! without them in the office, the office will be quiet! with us in the office, the others will just have to be patient or just put on their ear-piece and their own music!

I can't wait to see you baby!! gonna have a great night, I hope. I know we will =)

Alright. I'm done and bored. Gonna continue with my Desperate Housewives series!

taaaaa~

Hello!

My Monday was not too bad, maybe cause I hoped for Monday to treat me good. & it did! :) So, ask for it, wish for it, believe in it, you'll get it. So, if you want to be happy today, tell yourself that you're gonna be happy, work for it and believe in it, for sure you'll be happy cause you want it! That's life. If you tell yourself it's gonna be a bad day, your day will turn out dull. don't you think? I do think so =)

Had a great weekend. Spent time with my sweetie! went to few open houses on Saturday and Sunday too. I couldn't eat more than I wished for. On Saturday, I surrendered after two houses but I got so hungry after 10pm and starved myself till the next day. On Sunday, same thing happened. I just didn't have my usual big appetite but I was on for sweet stuff. I don't get myself sometimes. hehe! Didn't get to take lots of pictures this year, but others took our pics. So, let's just wait till they post it to facebook! talking about Facebook, Facebook has given everybody NO privacy at all and there's no such thing as 'Secrets' in life anymore cause everything will be revealed online, sooner or later, though you don't choose that to happen. Funny how life treats us nowadays. I think I prefer the way we live 10 years back.

Via, if you're reading this, just wanna tell you I miss you! Let me be honest, you're the happiest, cheerful person I've ever met and whenever I see you, you make me happy and you make people see the positive side of life! I think that's cause of your wide smile and big laugh! hahahahhaha Love you babe! When can we meet again? xx.

Oh, sayang, I think I'm starting to like the song 'Cinta Kita'. =)

Biar cinta kita tumbuh harum mewangi
Dan dunia menjadi saksinya
Untuk apa kita membuang-buang waktu
Dengan kata kata perpisahan

Demi cinta kita aku akan menjaga
Cinta kita yg telah kita bina
Walau hari terus berganti hari lagi
Cinta kita abadi selamanya

Suweeet =)

Outta here! Oh, glad to see my dad's happy face when he saw his birthday present from my mom. love you pa and mama.

October!

It's October already! Time flies very fast..

Ok, gonna get some breakfast first! ...

Had my breakfast, Coffee and bread! While having breakfast, I watched Lagenda Budak Setan for the 3rd time. 3rd time man! I must admit, I love that movie especially the part when Lisa Surihani and Farid Kamil are together. They are both gorgeous. :) I thought I won't cry watching it but it's just uncontrollable, I just had to cry again watching it. Such a good movie.

Life has been great. Life has been treating me well since last year. Thank you Allah :). Of course there has been ups and downs but they were all manageable. Thanks to Allah, thanks to my family who has been supporting me in whatever I do, I love you all. Thanks to my love, Isaputera, for being there for me to support me in any ways no matter how bad it gets, thank god I found you! I can't wait to be your wife =) hehehe Mwah.

(ani pose kambang :D)

I hope October will treat me better especially with work! I hope all will go well. =) September was a tough month to go through. We lost our beloved grandmother. Go through a quiet raya celebration. Siblings left Brunei for UK (gotta wait for another year to see them!). Oh well...

Losing someone very dear to me forever was a feeling that I could not describe. Seeing her trying to catch her last breath was the most tough and saddest picture to view. The moment I went to the room and saw her 'nazak' on the bed, I just couldn't hold my tears. I called her and told her I was there but she didn't open her eyes. 15 mins after I was there, she was gone forever. Until today, I will never forget about how it happened. I miss you. I miss my grandmother. She's the most religious, kind and full of honest advices that I've ever met. She was there for my Atok through thick and thin. She was there for her sons and daughters when they were in need. She was there for us, grandchildren, when we need her. She loves all of us dearly. Although she's not the chatty type but she will always give us good advice, she taught us with reading Quran.. Although she has a very serious look, she always give us a good feeling when she talks coz she has a very soft voice and she was very polite when she talks. We miss you Nek.. Thank you Allah for giving me the chance to see her for 25 years. Semoga Roh Nenek di tempat bersama orang-orang yang beriman...

Have a good day all!

Life doesn't make sense!

As I was reading Richard Templar book (refer to the first post) rule 34, I do agree with him where life doesn't make sense, sometimes, well I would say, all the time! Why do we even live in this world? Why do we have to work? Why do we need money? Why do alphabets start with A and not with M? Why, How, What... and all questions in our head, some things we just can't understand. As he mentioned, you are wasting your time trying to figure complicated things out when at the end, the answer is not even in any of your assumptions.

There are some things that we can't avoid. We try and try and try to dig for the answer and try to understand but we just can't. It stresses us out and we keep asking questions till we think we get the clear picture. For instance, we keep asking why can't guys understand how we feel. You asked them, they'll keep giving you the same answer that they do and that's just the way they are. We give it a big and deep thought and apparently, we had just wasted our energy! Thus, what's best for us (not only for girls, for everyone I mean!), take things the way it is when you know there are no other ways to change it and as Richard Templar quoted it "Let it go and discover the peace of mind that comes with knowing that you'll never understand everything." Isn't that right? We humans can never understand everything! stop being the Mr/Mrs-Know-It-All. :D you may know what it is but you may not understand it.

I'm missing your presence Anisut Samuil. If you're here at home, I don't think I'd have time to write all this! No blog will be created.

Sorry! Biar tia pakai gambar yang inda nampak muka mu okeh? haha.

And to My love Isaputera, I need you! I need you to be here with me to hug and comfort me. I miss you, so much.

How was your day?

What actually drives her mad, I don't know.

Anyway, day has not been too great. It was okay. I still can handle my day properly though during the afternoon was pretty hectic. Receiving bad news and feeling bad for others is not a good feeling at all, let alone hearing the news when you are all stressed out already. Enough of work, let's get back to my fantasy world. I don't really like being in 'that' real world. How I wished life is a fairy-tale. We meet happy people, we meet the perfect man (I have one, :) ), perfect job, beautiful children, a cosy home and all sorts of good stuff! Don't you wish for the same too? \

My siblings are not home; so now I'm back to being the only spoiled child; spoiled kepala hotak lah! haha. I'm missing them very much. I'm missing my boyfriend very much - how I wish you are here; it feels great to have someone to chat and go crazy with. I'm missing my late grandmother who has taught me a lot especially in reciting the Qur'an, she made me won the Qur'an recital competition. Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah and thank you Nek.

Will get back to you on that. I'm going to continue with doing my hair, reading my book and think about nothing. :)

G'day!

I have not been blogging for quite a while and now I think I feel like writing and share my thoughts. :)

"Dignity is about showing self-respect and having quiet self-esteem." - Richard Templar in 'The Rules of Life'.

What's good about this book is it gives you the direction to be more open, to get on with life no matter how bad your life gets, to be confident and to have self-respect. It gives me the thought of how to make people respect you more & show others respect. Also, this book doesn't exaggerate and gives you too much hope! He writes about how life really is through his experiences.

Other than that, life has been great so far. Alhamdulillah.